I have not written in a while and going back to the last few that I posted, you can tell some things were amiss. I struggled with even my thoughts and like one of my friends told me, despite my not wanting to label what it was, I was experiencing writer’s block (even sounds impressive that he considers me a writer).
I think I learned some things though in the course of taking a break. I realized that a break can be good and there are other things I can not only take a break from but may also need a break from, some of which can be good or appear to be beneficial. Sometimes, taking a break helps us re-evaluate ourselves and who we truly are without certain things, status, talents or possession etc.
Taking breaks can also help us reassess our motives. I was putting myself under pressure to write at some point hence the last few posts which by the way I am tempted to take down. Writing was my delight but with the pressure, it ceased to be. I felt not writing would reveal my inconsistency (no doubt it did), that I had missed the target I had set, and invariably that I had failed in this area and maybe I did, so I just had to “write”. The break also helped in reassessing my motive for wanting to take down the last few pieces I had written. It wasn’t only because I knew they were far from communicating what I intended and that my confused state was obvious but more so I was concerned over the fact that they weren’t perfect. I then wondered why I have to put up perfection. It reminds me of the world today, putting up the perfect images for the world to assume all is well with you. Not wanting to showcase our struggles and weaknesses. Looking the part, speaking the lingo in the name of putting our best foot forward! I think it is okay to be seen for who we are, as some of us are still Work In Progress.
I will not say I got my groove back yet. I still struggle as I strive to be better. This tells me that inasmuch as taking a break is good, sometimes the end of the break doesn’t automatically bring improvement or better results. Some will take time and for me, I hope that each post gets better to confirm this.
Stay tuned!
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